Friday, September 17, 2004
I'm coming down with something icky and so have been taking advantage of fever to work my brain. Tomorrow I'll feel even worse probably. No word on my proposal for The Heir, so naturally, I am stressing that Kate hates it.
Sigh. Also, I heard that another author didn't get any requests for edits on her forthcoming book, but her option book was rejected. Naturally, I immediately concluded that Leisure is in financial trouble since they can't afford to edit their authors' books anymore, plus they're not picking up any option books and that rejection of The Heir is on its way. Yes, I am sick and paranoid, only, maybe The Heir sucks (see whiplash comment coming up, there is evidence that this might be true.) On the other hand, I've had a couple more emails from people who read chapter 1 on the website, and they liked it. I am freaking over this. I hate waiting.
Anway, I think I may be able to mail my other proposal to Chris K tomorrow. It seemed pretty good today, but maybe when I re-read it, I'll think it sucks. The problem is, I need to get it off really, really soon and if I wait until I'm happy with it, I will have written the whole book and it will be too late. Arghh!
All agent queries in not-rejected-yet status. One has been out since July 25, all the rest since August 19. Am I to surmise I am being seriously considered since I haven't been immediately rejected? Maybe there's a top secret literary agent yahoo group and they've all decided that since they gave me whiplash last time around, they'll give me the water torture treatment this time. I've also been worrying that none of my queries made it out of the mailroom at work and someone will pull them out from behind the cabinet they fell off (sometime after postage goes up, or else after I get laid off) and it will be too late because I will have been rejected by Kate and Chris and hardly any publishers take queries from hopeless hacks who can't get agents. Of course, the one out since July pretty much has to be rejected since that agent got the sucky first chapter. You'd think she'd just send the blurry rejection and get it over with.
I still haven't re-read The Heir recently (which I am thinking of retitling) and now I'm afraid to because if it sucks I'd rather be in denial for a while yet. My issue of RT came today, but I couldn't stand to read any of the reviews becuase since I have no career, why depress myself reading about writers who have one? I can't bring myself to read about writers who are breaking out because that's just too depressing, too. I flipped by the ads because they're all for books that got published, probably by authors with agents. I read a couple of columns, that's it.
Sigh.
